Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Big Fish



I'd put my thinking cap on if I could find it. Or even my typing gloves, they're missing too. Isn't there a Saint of sorts that I should pray to, bring in to this room(spiritually speaking)say "Hey brother, could you find those things for me?", Amen.

The thing on my mind this morning, the only thing it seems is a big fish. It jumped in my boat of dreams last night, and I wasn't even fishing! Made all the other fish seem small,colorless -in my lifetime of fishing, I had never seen nor even realized that such big,beautiful fish existed. But this one, this heavenly sort -swam right up to me many moons ago, and I remember thinking this creature seems so large, looming and kind of scary. And besides, I had put my pole away-no more fishing, or baiting, certainly no trolling- fishing was just not my sport. So what does one do when the scales shine so? When the heart there, beneath the scales is bold and poetic and makes me miss something that I had never even found before?(How does one miss something one never had?!) Sure is a dilemma- this darned old big fish, do I throw it back? Do I tell it to swim away? Come again some other day? I surely don't know the answer to all the questions-all I know is my little pond here was becoming smooth as glass, no ripples hardly-and I found that comforting, safe. And now this big splash, ripples everywhere-to soon, or not soon enough...go away big fish, there is only water enough in my little pond for me. (But then again, fishermen(women)lie just a little, especially when it concerns big fish-you know, the one that got away...) Maybe I just need to wear waders for awhile, hope the farm store carries them in a heart high style- with industrial strength suspenders! See you again tomorrow, if I find that thinking cap. Take care-

4 comments:

Lorrie said...

sounds like man issues to me...LOL

Piercing The Veil said...

I am also surprised about the thought you had when you were writing this entry....de ja vu...???

It is surprising how sometimes things work... unexpected...overwhelming...so we are left clueless not knowing what to feel or do....

...scared to touch the kettle in the stove because we always think it may burn our hands but what if the kettle is not that hot...we might missed the coffe...

We always want to play safe and afraid to take risks ...but we may never know "what was" if we don't take a shot...

True.. we don't know what we are missing until that thing wanting comes as if telling "HELLO...YOU ARE MISSING SOMETHING AND I AM HERE TO LET YOU KNOW NOW..."

......good luck...i think you know what to do
/anto

bam said...

oh lordy. not sure what it is, but it smells awful fishy up here..........see you tomorrow, gulp.

Dave said...

Just for future reference, Saint Anthony is the saint of finding lost things. Even car keys!

-Catholic Dave